My friends have left me for good? It seems that way.

This is my second blog post about my friends. I’ve done a lot of thinking and it has dawned on me that maybe, just maybe they don’t even care anymore. Now I know you all are busy with school. Well guess what, so I am and I still find time to listen to people and care and hang out with people. See I make myself available for people I go the extra mile and try and be the best friend someone could ever ask for. But I guess that has scared you all to the point you’re worried I want more. Well I do not want anything then a friendship. Maybe my problem is that I care too much about my friends and you’ll get scared. Well I am sorry, I just don’t like to lose friends. I want my friends to care about me and at least show me that they care.

You know what I get depressed a lot. You know why? Because I feel that y’all have left me on the back burner and have turned me. Well I honestly don’t know why, I am sweet, caring, loving, trustworthy, respectful. I mean what more do you want. I know I might not be that bright in the head and I am sorry but I can’t help that I have a hard time learning or understanding people. If friends really cared they wouldn’t let that stop a great friendship! Friends don’t let small things like that get in the way. Friends have each others back and find time to do something or find time to listen to their friends when there struggling.

I know that you all are so far away and you don’t have time to do stuff. That is fine. But you know what? I will ALWAYS care about my friends, and it hurts me to think that they’ll are losing contact with me, or even stop caring or even think that I am not perfect. Who is perfect? I care too much, I know that. But is that a bad thing? Not really, It means I want all my friends to know that I will ALWAYS be there for them and that I will always be willing to listen to you when you are struggling.

But if you’re going to back stab me then please get out of my life now. I do not have time for you to back stab me and spread lies about me. It’s happened one to many times before. Maybe I would actually open up and tell you all my side of my story and why I am always going off on people and why I keep things bottled inside me. But I cant do that if you tell other people because It will hurt me more. Trust me I will find out too. I am always online and I am always one instant message away from talking to someone. So is caring a bad thing? I don’t see why not!