Why I act the way I do at times

People a lot of times do not understand who I am or why I do the things I do. But the things I keep a lot of things deep down inside of me, which I know is horrible to do. But It’s really hard for me to trust anyone nowadays. I have gone though an awful lot and there have been people who I though I could trust, only to find out that they’re backstabbers and reveal your secrets to everyone. Those kind of people I can’t be around. Now I pick my friends wisely and I don’t let it happen again.

I don’t have time to deal with stuff like that. Being my friend isn’t easy at times let me tell ya. You have to build up some much trust and respect in order for me to tell you anything. I can’t just start telling you things. You might go telling other people who I might not trust at all. Or even tell authority like parents. If I want stuff kept private that means private. Don’t go telling other people my deepest secrets.

In high school I was bullied a lot and threatened as well. So now I have a hard time picking friends. High school was a ride of hell for me. They say you are suppose to have the time of your life in high school. Really? Cause I sure as hell didn’t have a good time at all. It was the worst four years of my life. I will not let it repeat again. There are even some people who can’t learn to drop things and have to keep bringing up the past. Honestly why? Like my ex girlfriend she doesn’t want to accept the fact that I don’t want to be her friend. But she continues to annoy the fuck out of me.

I tend to be a very private person at times and not tell anyone anything at times. It’s nothing personal I just don’t like to work things out on my own at times. Sometimes that is the best solution for me to do. Which I know is a really bad thing to do at times. But it works for me. I can think about it harder, longer. I can even just let it all out on twitter or even on a blog post. So I am not exactly excluding everyone from not knowing.