My blog name says it all: Confessions of a Dangerous Mind. I am not holding anything back anymore. There have been a lot of things in my life I have kept bottled up inside for so long, that they actually start to hurt me a little bit. But today is the day I feel I must let the world know what has made me so mad.

So back in high school I used to date a girl and it was okay. It was nothing special. It all started off well but soon went down hill from there. I was getting in trouble a lot and my parents started to hate her. It was high school so we thought we were in love, but was it love? Too me I thought it was. I soon discovered it was not a pretty site.

We broke up after two months, then got back together. After another two months we broke up yet again. Then got back together again. I thought to myself “What am I doing I’m wasting my time.” So after about four months we worked it again.

Then another two months later we broke up and that was it. But she would not harassing me and It would not stop at all. I didn’t know what to do at all. I didn’t want to talk to her after what she did to me. She still called me all the time and I was becoming more and more annoyed by the fact that she didn’t get it. I had to change my cell phone number to get her to stop calling me and I even made a new email address to ignore her. She soon figured out that I changed my cell phone number and she would call my house phone. Every time she did this my parents would answer and she hung up immediately.

Then I found out that she even cheated on me more then once. That was what really pushed me over the edge. Cheating is probably the worst thing you can ever do to someone. Once you find out someone has done this to you, it really hurts a lot. I have have to forgive her for this. Why should I? All of my friends were to happy to see me hanging out with them again.

Then another two months later we broke up and that was it. But she would not harassing me and It would not stop at all. I didn’t know what to do at all. I didn’t want to talk to her after what she did to me.

I finally came up with a solution! and that was to change my cell phone number. I did eventually get it her out of my life. I sure was happy when I did. It was the happiest day of my life.

She really ruined my life. I had to get a lot of help and emotionally. I was not the same person after we broke up. I was all depressed and had a hard time in school. I almost failed out of school because of all the problems I was having, I ended up getting better but I could no longer talk to my ex-girlfriend because of what she did to me.

Once I broke up with her I went to a school organized group called SNOWBALL (Yes it’s all caps), SNOWBALL is not a snowball, in fact it’s a group to talk about problems you have and how to cope with them. I have defiantly changed for the better for this. During my time at snowball I learned a lot of important things that I have learned to use to this day. One of those was to tell your girlfriend/boyfriend you want time to spend with your friends.

Snowball also taught me that you can easily lose friends due to relationships and to drunk drivers. It’s very important to always talk to your friends and keep them closer. SNOWBALL also taught me respect and kindness and also to be trustworthy to your friends. My friends would probably say that I am trustworthy and respectful to them as well. SNOWBALL taught me a lot about life in general and to this day I cherish every moment I get. God only knows when something bad will happen to you or your friends and even your family.

I have changed a lot over the course of the 6 moths I have not been with her and it has taught me a lot. I have learned to be aware of these signs. Having a relationship was very good for me, it helped me get it over a lot of things and become a better person. I have taken my SNOWBALL experiment and have turned that into a positive approach on life and I’m happy now.

You don’t have to take my advice if you don’t want to but i recommend you do. If you are having a had time in school got seek help and become a better person, believe me it will change you.