A friend of mine is going on vacation tomorrow. I’ve neglected her a lot more than i will ever admit to as of late. Mainly due to my computer being down for upgrades and repairs. I don’t know what it is about me that’s always caused me to lose touch with those I care about most once they don’t try and reach me. I have always been a loner, by choice. I’ve never really been able to count on anyone short of family. I guess it just becomes easier to detach yourself from the outside world so when people disappear you don’t really take a hit from their departure.

I gotta work on that. It stems deep within’ my own being, however, so it won’t be easy. It’s unacceptable, though, cuz it means I’ll end up hurting people I care about.