Its been a hectic week plus.. since I last updated this blog… I am ashamed to admit it is a bit difficult for me to keep updating this blog.. however, I am trying my best..

I recently discovered the  world of smokers… :p

If my parents found out about it.. I am dead meat… nevertheless…. I find it nothing short of a disappointment when I went through the experience myself…. before I started smoking, my experience are purely based on secondhand knowledge… either from watching my brothers, boyfriend or colleague smoking and also from movies and (get this) I actually went through articles about smoking..  yep.. I prefer to do research before starting to experiment it firsthand… yeah. most of the article are gibberish….. including Youtube video!!! how ironic that people nowadays actually create a video on HOW to Smoke a Cigarette….. It actually left me curious and even more skeptical…. best solution I can come up with is… try it yourself!!!  So I did!!!!

My friends are the ones who got excited when they knew my interest in smoking. So they showed me…

My first real smoke was DIZZYING!!!! wargh!!!! I don’t actually feel upside down or like the world is going to collapse though. rather the feeling is like  waking up with a bad headache only that you don’t feel the pain…(something like that)…

a bit difficult for me to control my thoughts as I really feel lightheaded and drowsy..(did I explain it correctly?)

anyway….. other than that.. I don’t really feel the need to crave a smoke… even after I have been smoking for a month now… So I am wondering… what actually is the matter with people who can’t stop smoking????  can somebody tell me… what actually are you all feeling that I missed?