I am quite in a dilemma now. Sometimes I do wanna write personal stuff in this blog. It is titled ‘Life’. Then I should be talking about my life, but I am shy. Maybe I can try.

I received a phone call today from my Internet Service Provider early morning today. Just after talking to my girlfriend. They told me that I will not get any internet tomorrow till 6 p.m. That is because tomorrow they will be upgrading my internet connection to the speed of 16000 kbps. I am currently using 6000. But I just realize it a few weeks ago that T-Com is charging the same amount for a 16000. The new rate also including a flatrate Wi-fi account and some other extras that doesn’t interest me.

What I really concern is that tomorrow I don’t quite know when is my internet connection will be shut down. And then I can’t call my girlfriend tomorrow. We called everyday and plus we also meet using Skype. She is living in Malaysia and I am here since the start of our relationship. We will be hitting the 2 years mark this September. And it is not easy all the way. This long distance relationship is very hard. Many of my friends didn’t make it. I hope we will get through this to the end.

I still remember how I fell for her. I was just out of a relationship. Then I met her. She was on that time just a long lost friend. Every time I remembered, I smiled. It is just because of a stupid pretzel. That summer I was back in Malaysia, just a normal trip back home. It was not even a real date. I fell for her as the time she ate her pretzel. She was so cute, and she really is. By then I knew that I have to get this girl. I thought it was a hard thing to do. I just have a month to make my moves. I have to get back to Germany at the end of the holiday. 3 dates after that and a few phone calls is just all that I needed. And she is mine. Quite a good performance.

People thought that she was just a rebound girl. But we prove them wrong. We are still going strong and there is no sign of slowing down. I admit there is always good time. There are also bad times. But that is normal in a relationship. We can’t appreciate the good times if we didn’t face any bad times.

Babyface is in the air right now. God knows how much I miss her right now. I always thought of her, all the time. I hope that is what she feels too.

Love is a crazy thing. I can’t really explain it. People always ask me how do I know that she is the one. And I always answer, ‘You know, when you feel it. It can’t be explained.’

Being in love is like hell and heaven put together. There is misery and there is happiness. I don’t know why did I fall in love with you, Honey. How can I get in this deep. It is quite embarrassing telling this all here, but I don’t really care what other people think.

This is for you, Honey.

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Now I will continue enjoying the internet before it shuts down. I know I have to study but I there is time tomorrow that I can’t surf the net. Till then, adios.